To many Germans, Harald Jaeger is the man who opened the Berlin Wall.
It's a legacy that still makes the former East German border officer uncomfortable 25 years after he defied his superiors' orders and let thousands of East Berliners pour across his checkpoint into the West.
"I didn't open the wall. The people who stood here, they did it," says the 71-year-old with a booming voice who was an East German lieutenant colonel in charge of passport control at Bornholmer Street. "Their will was so great, there was no other alternative but to open the border."
Those people had come to his crossing at Bornholmer Street after hearing Politburo member Guenther Schabowski say — mistakenly, as it turns out — at an evening news conference on Nov. 9, 1989, that East Germans would be allowed to cross into West Germany, effective immediately.
Schabowski was a member of the ruling Socialist Unity Party in East Germany who helped force East German leader Erich Honecker from power a month earlier because of mounting public pressure across the Soviet Bloc for reforms.
Jaeger recalls almost choking on his dinner when he heard Schabowski on his workplace cafeteria's TV set. He rushed to the office to get some clarification on what his border guards were supposed to do.
For East Berliners yearning to go to a part of their city that had been off-limits for 28 years, Schabowski's meaning couldn't have been clearer. He was a member of the ruling party, and what he said was law.
But for Jaeger, everything he learned as a communist who served his homeland in the army, border patrol and much-hated Ministry for State Security had been turned on its head.
The Berlin Wall was a "rampart against fascism," he recalls. "When it went up on the 13th of August, 1961, I cheered."
A Feeling Of Uncertainty
Twenty-eight years later, on Nov. 9, hours before the Berlin Wall came down, Jaeger felt confused.
He says between 10 and 20 people showed up at Bornholmer Street right after Schabowski's news conference. They kept their distance from the crossing, nervously waiting for a sign from the East German guards that it was all right to cross.
They didn't give any.
The crowd soon swelled to 10,000, with many of them shouting: "Open the gate!"
"I called Col. Ziegenhorn, who was my boss at the time, and he said: 'You are calling me because of this nonsense?' " Jaeger says, adding that Ziegenhorn told him to send the people away. Jaeger says further calls to other government officials didn't help, either.
He insists that East German border guards never had orders to shoot East Berliners illegally crossing into the West on that night or any other. But the official Center for Contemporary History in Potsdam says 136 people were killed at the Berlin Wall during its existence, including people trying to escape, border guards and bystanders.
Jaeger says lethal fire was permitted only if guards felt their lives were threatened.
During the quarter-century he worked at the Bornholmer Street crossing, his guards only fired one warning shot, Jaeger says. But on Nov. 9, he worried that if the crowd grew unruly, people would end up hurt, even if it wasn't from guns.
Cracking The Gate Open
To ease the tension, he was ordered to let some of the rowdier people through, but to stamp their passports in a way that rendered them invalid if they tried to return home.
Their departure only fired the crowd up more, and pressure mounted on Jaeger from above and below to avert a riot. Despite orders from his higher ups not to let more people through, at 11:30 p.m.: "I ordered my guards to set aside all the controls, raise the barrier and allow all East Berliners to travel through," he says.
It's an order Jaeger says he never would have given if Schabowski hadn't given the press conference four hours earlier.
He estimates that more than 20,000 East Berliners on foot and by car crossed into the West at Bornholmer Street. Some curious West Berliners even entered the east.
People crossing hugged and kissed the border guards and handed them bottles of sparkling wine, Jaeger recalls. Several wedding parties from East Berlin moved their celebrations across the border, and a couple of brides even handed the guards their wedding bouquets.
But Jaeger says he refused to leave East Berlin.
"I was on duty," he explains with a laugh. East German officers didn't get permission from their government to cross into the West until just before Christmas, he adds. Red tape involving his travel documents delayed the trip another month.
Making His Own Trip To The West
When he finally did go, Jaeger decided it had to be across his border crossing to the West Berlin neighborhood on the other side.
"I felt like I knew that place after hearing so often about it from people who constantly crossed here," he says. "So I wanted to see for myself what the area was like."
His first impressions of West Berlin weren't very positive, however. He was surprised, for example, to see Turkish immigrants living in conditions as poor as those of East Berlin.
But he also knew from West Germans who came across his border crossing that western goods were better than eastern ones and more readily available. Bananas, for example, were available in West Berlin during the cold winter months, but not in East Berlin, he says.
The West German government gave 100 marks (about $60) to East Germans who came to visit. Jaeger says he bought an air pump for his car tires and gave the rest of the money to his wife and daughter.
Reunification of East and West Germany in 1990 led to the dissolution of the East German border authority, and Jaeger found himself unemployed at age 47. He tried his hand at a number of businesses, including selling newspapers, but he says the ventures never took off.
So he retired to a small town outside Berlin and spends his time giving interviews and traveling with his wife, Marga. He says they love to travel to countries they couldn't go to before 1989, including Turkey for their 50th wedding anniversary.
Jaeger says he has no regrets about what he did on the night of Nov. 9, 1989, nor was he punished by his East German superiors for doing it. He adds that he is looking forward to the 25th anniversary activities this weekend.
The highlight, he says, will be a meeting with one of his heroes — Mikhail Gorbachev. The former Soviet leader has invited Jaeger to his Berlin hotel on Saturday.
Soraya Sarhaddi Nelson is NPR's Berlin correspondent. Follow her @sorayanelson.
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Twenty-five years ago the unthinkable happened. At 11:30 p.m. on November 9, 1989, East German guards threw open a gate and, for the first time in three decades, allowed anyone through the Berlin Wall. The event led to the collapse of the infamous barrier dividing East and West Berlin, which, in turn, helped end the Cold War. The German government is commemorating that fateful night in Berlin this weekend, but the former East German border official who defied his superiors and opened the wall does not relish the attention. NPR's Soraya Sarhaddi Nelson has our report.
SORAYA SARHADDI NELSON: Harald Jaeger's anguish over his fateful decision is captured in a dark comedy called "Bornholmer Strasse" that aired on German public TV network ARD last night.
(SOUNDBITE OF TV SHOW, "BORNHOLMER STRASSE")
CHARLY HUEBNER: (As Harald Jaeger) (German spoken).
NELSON: In this scene, the shaken East German lieutenant colonel is in the bathroom rehearsing his explanation to his superiors on why he ordered his men to raise the barrier. I guarded this crossing for 28 years like my own child says the on screen Jaeger, played by actor Charly Huebner.
(SOUNDBITE OF TV SHOW, "BORNHOLMER STRASSE")
HUEBNER: (As Harald Jaeger) (German spoken).
NELSON: He splashes water on his face, stares at the mirror and changes his mind. The television Jaeger says no, I won't defend myself. I did what I had to do. Here at what used to be the actual Bornholmer Street border crossing in East Berlin, the real Jaeger tells me 25 years later his decision was the right one, even if it did turn everything he was ever taught about the wall on its head.
HARALD JAEGER: (Through translator) Politically, it was justified as a rampart against fascism, to seal us off from the West. But as it turned out, we East German officials, more and more, were using it to protect ourselves from our own people.
NELSON: Jaeger adds that if East German Politburo member Guenther Schabowski hadn't given a news conference that evening, he would never have opened the gate.
(SOUNDBITE OF NEWS CONFERENCE)
GUNTHER SCHABOWSKI: (German spoken).
NELSON: Schabowski interpreted his government's plans a little too liberally when he told reporters on November 9, 1989, that East Germans would be allowed to cross unimpeded into West Germany effective immediately. Jaeger heard the announcement on the cafeteria television set.
JAEGER: (Through translator) I'd planned to eat dinner before my shift. But after the news I almost choked. So I rushed to my office without finishing my meal and called my superior. I figured, somehow, someone had forgotten to pass on the new regulations to me.
NELSON: But his boss told him there was no change and that only East Germans who had rare visas could cross. The superior told Jaeger to send the rest away, so did the rest of the officials he spoke to. But the small crowd that gathered at his crossing after the press conference was growing and soon numbered in the thousands.
(SOUNDBITE OF PROTEST)
UNIDENTIFIED PEOPLE: (Foreign language spoken).
NELSON: They chanted open the gate and we are coming back because the plan was to go over to West Berlin just to take a look. Jaeger's superior later told him to try and calm the crowd by letting some of the troublemakers through, but to stamp their passports in a manner that would prevent them from coming back to East Germany. But as the number of people at the crossing grew, Jaeger was worried there would be a riot. He says he never gave or received any orders to shoot but was concerned some people would end up trampled or worse. So he defied his superiors and ordered his men to open the border. He estimates more than 20,000 East Berliners crossed into the West from Bornholmer Street that night. Jaeger says he's uncomfortable being portrayed as a hero.
JAEGER: (Through translator) I didn't open the wall. The people who stood there, they did it. Their will was so great that there was no alternative but to open the border.
NELSON: Soon other border crossings were opened. Huge crowds flowed past the wall and the following year, both Berlins and both Germanys became one. Soraya Sarhaddi Nelson, NPR News, Berlin. Transcript provided by NPR, Copyright NPR.